(Besides the fact that world building is tough, and I don't want to either write Generic Fantasy World #576 or go in for cultural apropriation.)
It occurs to me that growing up on adventure fiction and sixties protest music leaves one in a strange place when it comes to writing. I've never gone in for realistic fiction and I can accept the total unreality that is, say, Star Wars without trouble (even though a part of me can't help take issue with its glorification of war), but when it comes to writing fiction, well... it gets complicated.
There are some values of adventure fiction that I whole heartedly agree with - it does matter to do what's right, and friends are family, and there are things good people should never do, and people should stand up to villany (large and small), and all of that. But there are other values that I don't agree with - mainly the idea that violence is the only (or best) solution. (And the sexism, but that's a different post.)
And, no, the solution is not to write the stuff I'd never watch or read. Abandoning what I value about adventure fiction in order to avoid what I don't just won't cut it. I want to write the optimistic stuff. Perhaps not with such black and white morality, mind. I may believe that people can be evil (there simply is no better explanation for how some people can do the things they do than that there's a great sucking void where their soul ought to be), but whole countries? Races? No, sorry, not buying it. The leader of a country may be evil, but the soldiers on the battlefield? I'm sorry, but on both sides, all they really want to do is survive to go home. (Yes, they may buy the propaganda that their enemy is evil and must be defeated and yes they want to win, but that's so they can, you know, survive to go home...and have a home to go to.)
It's really tough to write adventure fiction when you don't actually want to add to the propaganda of glorious battles. It isn't impossible. I think MacGyver did a decent job of sticking to the idea of a hero who's basically a pacifist while also being an adventure show. Some of the old Doctor Who serials. For the most part, The Irresponsible Captain Tylor. Some of Diana Wynne Jones's books. So I know it's possible.
So why is it so bloody hard.
Probably because I grew up wanting to be Han Solo and Samwise Gamgee and Fflewddur Fflam and Miles Vorkosigan (Look! A main character!) and, damn it, there's a part of me that still wants to be a swashbuckling hero (or sidekick) who rescues fair maid and saves the kingdom and all that rot. Self saving fair maids are no problem, but the kingdom saving and swashbuckling parts are really hard to give up. Even for someone who also knows the words to No Man's Land and There Were Roses and The Patriot's Dream and...you get the picture.
*sigh*
I want to be a good influence, not a bad one, damn it. There must be a way to write a fantasy equivalent to MacGyver. Right?
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I borrowed the second season of the new Doctor Who off of my friend and was struck by how different it is in tone and in its view of the Doctor from the old Doctor Who (or at least the episodes thereof that I've seen). I may have been struck by that when I saw the first season, or it may be that the difference is with the David Tennant episodes, I don't know.
In the old Whos I've seen, mainly Tom Baker and Peter Davison, the Doctor was less...special than the David Tennant Doctor seems. Sure, the Doctor's a Galifreyan Time Lord who knows more than the people he encounters and is sometimes a moral compass (or bat) for them, but he never seemed like a capital "h" Hero. He needed the help of the people he tried to help as much as they needed his help. And the humans in the old stories were a more impressive force, not just in that UNIT was many times more competent than Torchwood, but in general. Humans rarely seem dangerous in the new Who, and the enemies seem more, well, like something out of a monster movie.
Yes, I know, there's always been a horror element to Doctor Who, and I can certainly think of horror episodes of the old Who, but humans seem less able to fight the monsters now. It used to be that the Doctor came up with ways to defeat the monsters that the humans (his companions, UNIT, the random meddling or meddled with humans of the story) could participate in in a more equal way. The new Doctor seems much more super human, and, of course, the monsters have to be a threat to him.
It's like a badly balanced gaming campaign where someone brought in a far more powerful character. In the old series, the Doctor was almost more of an NPC, and now he's a gamemaster's PC.
This goes weirdly with the darker tone of the new series, which has somehow gone...odd. It's as if in trying to make the show less black and white, morally, they accidentally made it more black and white. There were many times in the old shows that I saw in which none of the groups of people the Doctor interacted with (except, possibly his companions) were what you'd call good guys. Some members of those groups might be sympathetic (and they usually lived), and usually one side of the conflict was better than the other, but mostly it seemed like the Doctor and companions stumbled into situations and left them improved, but didn't take sides so much as helped the people who were least hostile to them. (Or, on occasion, helped people regardless of their hostilities.) The Doctor didn't so much try to have one side win as try to fix the problem(s). Now it's generally humans vs. aliens. And the aliens are bad. Yet, somehow, the Doctor seems less like a wandering positive influence and more like the morally dark savior of human kind.
I don't know. It's weird. And this may or may not make sense, since it's rather a one sitting ramble on the topic. I still enjoy the new Who, don't get me wrong, but it's more of a dark superhero show and less of whatever you'd have called it before.
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My good friend with the kitty powers called me after work to tell me she had to put her 21 year old cat, Doogie, to sleep. He broke his hip jumping down from something and was already too weak (he'd been losing weight for about a month before this) to survive any kind of surgery to repair it. She stayed with him (and her mom stayed with her) while he was put to sleep.
Doogie was a big grayish tabby like my Max. He loved to sit on people - in their lap, on their chest, on their neck - and was just the biggest ball of love. Watching movies with him around was kind of difficult, though, since someone invariably mostly saw a big kitty face while he sat on their chest or neck, purring merrily. He liked donut holes, though he didn't get them much (except when he stole them), since sweets aren't good for kitties.
She found him in a Circle K when she was a teenager. I met him when I met her, years ago. Doogie was a wonderful kitty and I miss him. No life is ever long enough, no matter how long, happy, and full. :(
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crushed
Okay, cooks of my friendslist, I could use some cooking advice. Again.
I've had really good tofu in things from restaurants - mainly soups and stir-fries, but when I cook it at home, it's always kind of meh. Are there any tips or tricks I'm overlooking? Really awesome stir-fry recipies I should be trying? Extra yummy marinades? I know there are people on my friendslist who regularly cook with it.
All advice is much appreciated, as always. :)
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Directions:
Mark which things you have done, then calculate your score by counting the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is also your percentage.
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There are many. :)
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Then, in May of the year I turned twenty, I moved to Prescott, Arizona, where I got an odd little apartment in an alley behind a movie theater. I lived there for less than two years, but I made some really good friends there and had a great time rock scrambling, hiking, and generally having a good time in the neighboring National Forest. And, of course, making frequent roadtrips to Phoenix to see movies.
After that, I moved back home with my parents to give college another shot and moved out to Colorado with them. Then I moved to Colorado Springs, Colorado, with a friend before moving to my current apartment.
My favorite place to live, all around, is my current apartment. I live in a neat old building that was built in 1937 as a residential hotel and is in good walking distance from a number of things. There are also plenty of good hiking areas nearby - and Denver about an hour's drive away. My second favorite place was Prescott. My apartment wasn't so great, but I really had a good time living there. Well, okay, trying to earn a living there was also a pain. So, yes, here is definitely better.
My least favorite place was an old farmhouse outside of Council Bluffs that my parents and I briefly lived in. I usually like old houses, but this one was poorly built and run down. I also think it was haunted, since I kept hearing what sounded very much like someone pacing in the attic - and I'd lived in old houses before and never heard settling that sounded like that. Which meant that I slept on the couch rather than in my upstairs bedroom while we lived there. It was also in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by cornfields, so there was no place to play and even grocery shopping required a long drive into Council Bluffs. My parents and I disliked it so much we spent that whole summer at my grandparents' house even though we don't get on all that well with them. That tells you something.
I walked down to the bagel shop, even though it was cloudy, since it's going to be cloudy for oh, the next week or so. When I came out of the bagel shop, lightning forked across the sky, thunder rumbled...and it began to pour. Needless to say, I was soaked by the time I walked the five blocks home. But still... when does it ever actually do the lightning, thunder, downpour thing? Besides today, of course.
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amused
Personally, I would want a committed relationship. But I'm not going to look down on people who don't as long as they're open about it with the people they have relationships with. It really is important that everyone be on the same page, after all. And that people are honest. Those are the factors important to my morality (and the whole consenting adults thing, of course) not how many husbands or wives are involved.
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Yesterday evening I went to a meetup group that goes to local restaurants. We went to a new Sri Lankan restaurant which proved to be really good. (If it weren't all drizzly out today, I'd be tempted to walk down there and get some dinner takeout.) I'm still hopelessly shy, but at least I'm working on it. And finding yummy food. A definite bonus.
Paperwork on the new job is underway. I need to try to find some more work pants, too. *sigh* I hate clothing shopping. It shouldn't be so hard to find pants that fit at the waist, it really shouldn't. I guess I'll hit the thrift stores and hope for some, oh, decade old clothes that are magically in good shape. I suppose what I really need is to be rich enough to pay someone to make me pants until the styles change again. (Provided they don't change to something even worse.)
And that is my exciting life.
Now...do I cook or wander off in the rain for more yummy Sri Lankan food? Decisions...decisions...
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content
I think the two biggest things we could do to make teen drivers (and all drivers) safer would be to make sure that driver's ed is both required and competent and to change our cultural attitude toward driving. When I took driver's ed, we used a poorly maintained car with serious alignment problems, non working windshield wipers, and various other issues. We were told not to practice outside of class, yet our second class involved highway driving. It was a nightmarish mess, in other words. Driver's ed should use properly functioning cars and spend a good deal more time teaching people the basics before dumping students on to highways. Driver's ed should also include learning to handle a car under emergency situations and on bad road conditions, neither of which we were taught. Proper driver's ed would help a lot.
Our culture is a more challenging problem, but I think it's an important one to face. We have to stop praising, or at least accepting, bad driving if we want new drivers to be good drivers. We shouldn't treat the speed limits as suggestions. We should frown on automakers using ads that are all about speed. We should encourage people of all ages to wear their seatbelts, not drive when they're tired, and drive the speed limit (or below in bad weather). Every time we put down people for driving safely, we're sending a message that driving unsafely is the right thing to do. So, folks, let's stop sneering at people who follow the speed limit and buckle up. We managed to make drunk driving less cool (though that needs work still, too), let's get to work on other "cool" bad driving.
Take a good look at Allstates "Facts about teen driving" and consider what some of them mean. After all, adult drivers made up 88% of the individuals involved in automobile crash deaths in 2006. How many of us adults also talk on cell phones, or, worse, text on them when we drive? How many of us speed? Think hard about the fact that "69 percent of teens who speed say they do so because they want to keep up with traffic." Somehow, I don't think traffic consists only of teen drivers. Are the fellow drivers who 67% of teens felt unsafe as passengers of all teens? Why do teens have the lowest rate of seatbelt use? Have they just not learned to lie when asked if they wear their seatbelt? (Think about it, someone, somewhere is modeling not wearing their seatbelts.) And, to go back to the need for driver's ed, are teens less safe at night because they haven't actually been taught to drive at night?
So, everybody who drives, let's try cleaning up our act, too. It's not just important that teenagers drive safely; it's important that we all drive safely.
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cranky
The library called this morning. I have an interview tomorrow. I'm trying not to worry about it. And planning to get up a little early so I have plenty of time to wake up and eat something before I walk down there and babble incoherently. Seriously. I never know what to say in job interviews. Sometimes my babbling gets me hired, sometimes it doesn't. And, no, memorizing the "right" answers to likely questions won't work. I'm horrible at random memorization. Besides, I'd feel like I was cheating, and that wouldn't help.
In other news, I really want sushi for some reason, but if I go get it I'll have to drive - it seriously looks like it's going to rain, and possibly thunderstorm. And I happen to have a not-entirely-rational fear of lightning. (It goes with all my other not-entirely-rational fears.) But I feel stupid driving to a place that's only four or so blocks away. But lightning. *sigh* Why aren't there sushi places that deliver?
Ah well, I will figure out how to acquire sushi. Or make something else at home. Stupid fear of lightning.
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And it's been a long time since I saw a movie that was better than ok. Granted, it's still sexist as all hell - beyond just having James T. "sleeps with everything that moves" Kirk as a main character - but I enjoyed it. The fact that everyone in the theater was enjoying it probably helped, of course. Then again, that didn't save the horrible Indiana Jones movie.
I'm just happy to have seen a movie that I enjoyed. As oposed to spending most of it going "oh, yay, plot hole" or "wow, that was stupid" or "didn't I see this on MacGyver?"
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content
I will meet people, I will make off-line friends, and I will do things.
I will take control of my life and figure out a way to do what I want. I can do this. And I will.
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Things Mac doesn't like that might or might not be a surprise.
Due to my dislike of grimdark I couldn't get into new Doctor Who. I watched the first season and went meh, it's missing something. I liked the few Donna episodes I saw, but we all know how that ended. Which is a pity, because if it hadn't gone that way, I might have given the show a second try. I came to actively dislike Torchwood pretty quickly. The combination off grimdark and stupidity was just too much for me to even give it a season. I didn't even try Battlestar Galactica or The Sarah Connor Chronicles. I can't actually think of a sci-fi type show since Stargate SGI that wasn't way, way, way too serious for me. (And I didn't watch that one until it was on DVD and someone told me that it wasn't the stereotype fest that the movie was.)
I didn't like the Pirates of the Caribbean sequels. I didn't like Indiana Jones and the Incredibly Stupid Movie With Not-Aliens-We-Swear. I'm not sure I've seen a movie that I'd rate as better than "okay" in over a decade. :(
I don't even know what music is popular right now. I might like it. I might not.
As for books, um, I found Lois McMaster Bujold's fantasy books really frikin' depressing despite loving the heck out of her Miles Vorkosigan-verse books. They're still good, but damn. I might try them again in a decade just in case my seriousness threshold shifts again, but I like going away from books feeling up, not down.
Things Mac likes that might be a surprise.
Well, I like Clive Cussler's gleefully unreal Dirk Pitt books - despite their problems. When I worked at a little bookstore, I read horrible romance novels for comedy value. A few of them were even supposed to have comedy value.
There are some songs that I like inspite of their content, like Rush's Red Barchetta or Garth Brook's Papa Loved Mama. Why do I like them? I don't know.
No one said tastes made sense.
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thoughtful
I then met up with my ex-roomate, her husband, and our friend from Arizona (who's visiting for a week) for lunch. At a buffet. *sigh* Buffets are really best for people who a) like very standard American food and b) eat a lot at one setting. I don't mind standard American food, but it's not my favorite. But I never eat large quantities of anything, so I'd rather we'd gone to Applebees or something. Ah well.
Then we ended up going to the Humane Society to get ex-roomie and her husband a kitten. (They have two cats, but one is elderly and the third cat they had died last year. :( So a third cat was needed again.) I would happily have adopted a cat myself, even though it isn't wise financially, if it weren't for the fact that Max is FIV positive. Then again, I really don't have space or money for a second cat, so that's just as well. I just really like cats. Yes, someday I will be the crazy cat person. There are worse fates.
However, I discovered that Colorado Springs now requires licenses for cats. When did that happen? O_o I guess I'll be going back tomorrow to get one for Max. Right after I sell the pile of books I don't want to a local used bookstore.
Okay, time to stop rambling and make dinner.
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tired
I know there are people on my friends list (possibly everyone on my friends list) who know more about cooking than me. So I'm going to ask for cooking advice. I'd like to be able to cook rice, but at Colorado Springs elevation (6,000-7,000 ft) it takes forever, especially if I try to cook brown rice. It also tends not to come out that great. Should I get a rice cooker? A pressure cooker? Is there some trick I'm missing?
Googling suggests I might want to try sauteing brown rice before cooking and/or bring the water to a boil with the rice already in it. However, Colorado Springs may be high enough that I need to invest in either a rice cooker or a pressure cooker to get consistantly good rice in a decent amount of time. Does anyone have some experience with this?
Thanks all.
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curious
What I would like this Earth Day is good, clear information on green choices. There seems to be a decided lack of that, despite the increasing interest on the part of people everywhere. Most of the books I’ve read on the subject have serious problems and I’m reluctant to put my faith in incomplete or questionably acquired information.
Is our rush to convert everyone to compact florescent bulbs really a good idea given how poorly it’s being handled? Compact florescent bulbs seem to be a good idea, energywise, but there is the little matter of having to engage in extra careful clean up should one break, not to mention the fact that they have to be disposed of as hazardous waste. Worse, many people are now using them with no idea that they’re not supposed to throw them in the trash and no idea that clean up of a broken one is a bit more extensive than “vacuum up the broken bits.” (Which may not even be a good idea.) Are children, pets, and uniformed people going to suffer for the good of the many? Is that an acceptable trade-off? Oh, sure a few pets or infants get mercury poisoning, but, look, our energy use is down. I’m not okay with that.
If we really have decided that compact florescent bulbs are the best choice for the environment. If the studies comparing them to incandescent bulbs were thoughtfully and accurately done – and not too closely tied to some corporate interest – then we need to make sure people are aware of the risks and handle them properly, not just rush to get them into as many homes as possible.
Are front loading washers really the way to go? I’ve heard some suggestion that they break down more frequently (and they are more expensive to fix, not to mention being more expensive to buy), and I’ve heard that their rapid spinning may actually be a problem in some houses. My limited experience with them suggests that they take smaller loads of laundry, which would seem to be a problem for the idea that they’re more energy efficient. We can’t compare energy use load to load if the loads aren’t, in fact, the same size. But I can’t seem to find any studies comparing the energy to wash the same volume of clothing in front loading and top loading washers. The current wisdom is that front loaders are better, but the facts seem hazier than that.
The same problem applies to the question of whether it’s really better to use a dishwasher as opposed to hand washing your dishes. Do the comparisons take into account the building and disposal of the dishwashers? Do they take into account that a person would have to own more dishes and cookware to use a dishwasher at maximum efficiency? Do dishwashers still come out more energy efficient if a person has a solar hot water heater? Does it matter that some of the studies seem to have been sponsored by dishwasher manufacturers?
Energy efficiency in anything that uses energy is a good idea, but are some of these energy saving tips merely a shifting of the responsibility onto the consumer, or worse, a co-opting of the green movement by business to sell us more stuff? Will we look back on some of today’s green choices the way we look back on the Volkswagen Rabbit? (Oops, diesel wasn’t really the way to go.)
I don’t know. And I can’t find information that meets my (rather high) standards. I’m tired of looking through green books that tell me to use the internet rather than the public library for information with no explanation of why the internet involves less energy use. (Are they assuming one drives to the library?) Or to replace my old television now because, as a pre-digital set, it will someday end up in a landfill. (Don’t digital sets break eventually, too?) Or to buy a laptop rather than a desktop computer. (But you can upgrade desktops much easier than laptops. Was that taken into consideration?)
I want to live greenly, but I want to do it right. I recycle. I use reusable grocery bags. I try to give away or sell anything I don’t want that someone else might. I do try to buy locally (though organic may outweigh that, depending). I try not to be a thoughtless consumer. Is it too much to ask for good information on more complicated options?
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thoughtful
I bought a cheap bookcase a few years back that proved to be so crappy it couldn't support the weight of a shelf of paperbacks without bowing. I finally got some replacement shelving tonight, figured out how to put it together by myself (the directions claimed it was a two person job, but I am clever), and now have non-bowing shelves.
I also took the time to reorganize my home entertainment stuff so I don't have to detach my DVR to use my DVD player. (My VCR's tuner failed, so I can't connect the DVD through it anymore...at least I think that's what's happened.)
Now all that remains of spring cleaning/organization is to go through my books and make sure I don't have anything I don't want lurking anywhere - and buy a few more magazine boxes for my magazine collection.
I am organized! (for certain values of organized)
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